Even after all those years, I will still want my first love twice I will love you over the course of time, my love will keep on piling up like the miles that keep on extending between us, through the tears I shed and through the years I spent without you, For i will always love you
~All this water in the oceans but still not enough to wash away the bloodstains you left
Immersed in those sheets with my breath rising as your fingers hit the right stop and my body arching with every stroke. I hid my head in your chest with a wish to live my forever like that but when reality made its way through the curtains and shone bright on my face, I reached out to clutch to your shirt but there was nothing except those empty sheets and a heart crammed in memories
~she was in the palm of My hand and still not mine
I promise one day you’re going to wake at 3 am, all this is going to make sense, your feelings will be sorted and a lump of courage will rise in your throat and you will get out of bed to come after me but i will be gone.
I despise myself and the choices I made but tonight when I thought it through I didn’t feel hate for myself infact I hugged myself, not out of love but pity. The cold wave of hollowness dipped in misery made my soul Tremble and tears started rolling down my cheeks